Today’s post is a difficult one for me to write, I am being a bit more vulnerable than usual. We are at Week 17 already, which is amazing! It has gone so fast! But time tends to do that. Anyway, I am having some mixed feelings.
On one hand, I feel like things are going great, I am fitting in almost all my daily practices, getting most of the weekly “assignments” done as well, falling behind on digital solutions but catching up here and there. And I registered for the Live Event in June – YAY!
But on the other hand, I am having those sneaky little old blueprint doubts and fears chip away at my new confidence. Thoughts like: “nothing is really changing” or “why aren’t you getting results” or “are you EVER going to make progress?”. And my husband’s attitude doesn’t really help. He’s all skeptical of this ‘whoo-whoo’ stuff, and though he is quite happy to come along to Kauai, he isn’t really buying in to the life-changing power of Universal Law. Which makes me want to prove him wrong (in a good way since we all benefit).
So I looked to the lessons for some inspiration. Here are a few things that spoke to me:
I am not on this earth by chance. I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I strain my potential until it cries for mercy. Og Mandino, Scroll IV
Yes, I have a purpose! And there is definitely room to improve and grow. Just because I haven’t seen big changes or results does not mean this isn’t working. I have been doing the work, I have been changing. As I improve my focus and concentration, my results will come.
We must let go of what we are to become what we can be. ?Charles Haanel
I can’t find the actual quote right now, but it was something like that. I do think I am holding on to the old Me a little too tightly to let the future Me take over. Like a toddler learning to walk, I must let go of the furniture to take my first steps. So far I have not been working out of my comfort zone in my business, hence not huge results. But I AM working, and will continue to work and expand that comfort zone.
Intuition often comes with a suddenness that is startling; it reveals the truth for which we are searching, so directly that it seems to come from a higher power. Intuition can be cultivated and developed; in order to do this it must be recognized and appreciated; if the intuitive visitor is given a royal welcome when he comes, he will come again; the more cordial the welcome the more frequent his visits will become, but if he is ignored or neglected he will make his visits few and far apart. Charles Haanel MKE 17:23.
I have probably been neglecting that intuitive visitor for most of my life, though have been cultivating it more regularly for the last couple of years. So this morning, during my ‘sit’, I prepared a royal welcome in my mind (I imagined a royal fanfare like in old movies), and a nice little affirmation came to me: “I am becoming more. I am becoming more. I am becoming more. Thank you Lord.” I can accept this as a bridge from the old Me to the new Me.
‘Doubt your doubts’ is something I read in a fellow MKE blogger post, thank you so much for your wisdom, that is something for me to remember and live.
And just for fun, when I looked for “no doubt” images, this one came up.