In the photo above you can see I am looking out over the ocean. This was taken after I completed the Camino de Santiago de Compostela (I walked 750 km across Northern Spain – with my daughter). At this point I felt a sense of completion and of peace. I was so happy to have finished the walk, it was a labour of love, and a great accomplishment. But a part of me was looking ahead, and that is what I want to talk about now.
I had learned about Mark J and then the Master Key Experience about two or three years ago. I enjoyed all the free resources, and found they helped me with my business. But I was still stuck. I did not go for the MKE at that time, but I have always invested in CANI (Constant And Never-ending Improvement), I read and/or listen to educational material almost every day. But I was still stuck.
I love the company I work in, it is revolutionary and visionary, and is an amazing opportunity. I have taken on some leadership roles within our group and have learned and improved my skills in presenting and setting up a training website. But I was still stuck.
I have traveled to conferences in exotic locations, I have been a team player, I have stepped outside my comfort zone (at least a little way). But I was still – you guessed it – stuck.
What do I mean by stuck? Well, something seems to be holding me back – from sharing the business, from asking for a commitment, from setting expectations, from moving forward, from earning money. I am not sure what it is, but I know it is within me. I know that for things to change, I have to change. For things to get better, I have to get better. When I improve the inner game, then the results will follow in the outer game.
I love this quote by Marianne Williamson, and need to remind myself of it:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
So this fall when I saw the Master Key Experience was coming up again, I decided that this time, I will make the leap of faith, follow the directions, do the work, and come out the other side – UNSTUCK! If not NOW then when? If not ME then who? The time is NOW! This is MY TIME! So I will keep looking forward, and moving forward – as I work on ME!
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